I feel shy to take another risk, pls. hlp.?

this is my story. i fal in lov at 14. the gal was 13. she ws my naghbr. she oftn usd 2 come our hous. we ply 2gthr, even we took shower in the rain. some times she took off her cloths in front of me, i enjoyed it very much looking at her. at that age none of us being known about ! but it was a kind of feeling that led us to love each other. we continued for a couple of yaers, then broke up. now i feel shy to take another risk, pls.hlp.